Guilty Mommy

What made me feel really crappy today is not my stomachache or nausea, but it is what I've done to my sweet little daughter.

On Saturday, I brought our for swimming, she loved it! She really enjoyed playing in the water. She didn't know how to swim but I could see she has instinct for it. We spent about an hour there at the pool, and she did not want to leave the pool. So I had to tell her I will take her there again on Sunday.

But...... I forgot I had to work on Sunday!!!

On Sunday, I left home early hoping I could go home early enough to be able to take her to the pool but the weather was unfavorable.... it was raining, so we couldn't go.

This morning, my little woke up before 6 AM, with a big grin on her face.... and the first thing she said to me was "Let's go swimming!"

That broke my heart...... I broke her promise and I couldn't take her to swim today either... I won't be able until next Saturday.

I feel like sh*t now.... I wish I could take her to swim....

Ramona.... I'm sorry.

Dedicated to a betrayal

"I Don't Care Anymore"
By Phil Collins

Well you can tell ev'ryone I'm a down disgrace
Drag my name all over the place.
I don't care anymore.
You can tell ev'rybody 'bout the state I'm in
You won't catch me crying 'cos I just can't win.
I don't care anymore I don't care anymore

I don't care what you say
I don't play the same games you play.

'Cos I've been talking to the people that you call your friends
And it seems to me there's a means to and end.
They don't care anymore.
And as for me I can sit here and bide my time
I got nothing to lose if I speak my mind.
I don't care anymore I don't care no more

I don't care what you say
We never played by the same rules anyway.

I won't be there anymore
Get out of my way
Let me by
I got better things to do with my time
I don't care anymore I don't care anymore
I don't care anymore I don't care anymore

Well, I don't care now what you say
'Cos ev'ry day I'm feeling fine with myself
And I don't care now what you say
Hey I'll do alright by myself
'Cos I know.

'Cos I remember all the times I tried so hard
And you laughed in my face 'cos you held all the cards.
I don't care anymore.
And I really ain't bothered what you think of me
'Cos all I want of you is just a let me be.
I don't care anymore D'you hear? I don't care no more

I don't care what you say
I never did believe you much anyway.

I won't be there no more
So get out of my way.
Let me by
I got better things to do with my time
I don't care anymore
D'you hear? I don't care anymore
I don't care no more
You listening? I don't care no more
No more!

You know I don't care no more!