Letter to Jane

Dearest Jane,

First of all I want to say that I’m so sorry for what I’ve done to you. I didn’t realize how much I caused you in troubles and how much I hurt you. I’ve been stupid, avoiding the truth and destroying all your self-confidence.

Jane, I hope you forgive me for what I’ve done. I promise you, I will not make the same mistakes. I will try to understand you, listen to you and I will definitely love you more.

I told you nobody loves you, I made you believe that and it hurts you so much. Jane, I’m so sorry. Here is the truth, there are many people who love you and will always be there to support you.

Jane, trust me. You are great and you are so lovable. Don’t let anyone bring you down, especially me. Get up and move forward. You have potentialities to do whatever you want. You will be loved again and you will give love back to others.

I love you, Jane. You’re so special.

With love,
Me

Match Point

"The man who said "I'd rather be lucky than good" saw deeply into life. People are often afraid to realize how much of an impact luck plays. There are moments in a tennis match where the ball hits the top of the net, and for a split second, remains in mid-air. With a little luck, the ball goes over, and you win. Or maybe it doesn't, and you lose."

That's a quote from movie "Match Point" by Woody Allen that I saw this afternoon. It's a really good movie. I liked it.

And...after watching it, I just had a thought to myself..questioning myself that "Am I considered a lucky one?"

I have the answer. "Yes! I am a very lucky one", I strongly believe that all the good things that happened to me, some of them I've got by luck!

I think I have more chances, I got them at the right moment, I've met good people, I have good family and good friends... I've had good jobs... I got into good schools...

My life has been through smooth path... sometimes I think, it's too smooth... and I think why am I so lucky? Even I never won a lottery... but I know I have all the luck I need....

I hope I didn't spend all the luck I have! Otherwise I will have no luck from now on!! Do you know how to increase your luck level?? If yes..please let me know!

Water and Jane

Jane: Hi there...where are you rushing to?
Water: I don't know.
Jane: and then why are you going there?
Water: Because we have to.
Jane: But you don't know where it is and what is going to happen to you there?
Water: No, I don't know.
Jane: Aren't you afraid?
Water: Yes, I am but I still have to go.
Jane: This is amazing. I Like your idea! but I have one more question.
Jane: Why are you rushing?
Water: Oh! Yes! Why am I???
Jane: !?!?
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I always had a dream about water, like I swimming (which I don't know how to in real), sailing, or pushing by water...go along in the river...
I don't know why I dreamed about it...
So I asked a friend to interpret my dreams, and he told me to write a conversation between me and water with 75 words.
And this is what I wrote...

Do you know what it means? Will you help me interpret my dreams?

Once in a lifetime...

A friend sent me this today... how thoughtful she is...
I only think that this year we will have 06/06/06... for Satan's sake... But I never thought of it this way....
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Once in a lifetime
Think about this one...

Next month, (on Thursday, 4th of May ) at two minutes and three seconds
after 1:00 in the morning, the time and date will be

01:02:03 04/05/06.

This won't ever happen again in our lifetime...
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Carpe Diem!!! Pluck the Day...

Birthday present

I've got something for my birthday...
with 296 games in 1
I love classic...

Jane at 28 yrs old..

I saw on JY's blog, she has photos of herself for her birthday...So I think I should have some too...
So this this how I look like when I'm 28 years old!
*I have haircut and dyed my hair a bit..did you notice that?*

Afternoon Cakes!!!

Afternoon ritual for my birthday...we all sacrificed ourselves with bloody cakes, sponsored by my boss, Shimaosan..Arigoto ne...

Birthday lunch!!

Lunch time celebrating for my birthday with everyone in my office... with Isaan (Northeastern) food... Everybody loves it!!!

DCC and Jane

From DCC
Jane's reply
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Thanks a lot Sergio!

Silly Me

I'm depressed...
I don't know what is wrong with me..but I'm sad now.. really sad.
I am crying... I feel like crying all the time today...
I don't know why?

I got 2 opinions from 2 friends (one is Simple American)...and they both think the same way. They think I have pre-birthday blues or pre-b-day depression!!!

I never heard of that!!! What is that??? and how did it happen to me???
Why???
I don't know....
I'm sad...
Damn it....
What is wrong with me?
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Updated*
Sorry...but Blogger had problem for posting last night! I didn't know I already posted as it kept saying 0% posted!!!!
Blame it on Blogger.com ok?

Tomorrow...tomorrow...

Tomorrow is 25th April...it's my birthday!
Do you think my wish will come true???
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Let's wait and see!

***I feel old...already...28 years old!

Is the grass greener?

"The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence" -- People are never satisfied with their own situation; they always think others have it better.
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Have you ever had this kind of thought? Never satisfied of what you have, what you are...

Is the grass really greener on the other side?

Why?

You found someone perfect for you, but when time changed, you start looking for better perfect one, why?

You know what? The reason that the grass on the other side is greener because you let your grass dry...and died.

I wish you have luck on finding greener grass...
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Happy Friday to everyone!

Grandma in hospital

**This pic was taken January 2005**
My Grandma was sent to hospital today... due to her heart disease, she couldn't breath. Th edoctor found liquid in her lungs... Now she is ok but still in hospital alone.

She lives with my sister in Phang-nga, but my sister got assignment in another province. So there is nobody with her....

I hope she get well soon... she is 78 years old now... Ah por..Don't give up! I love you...

What is Crimson RED?

I used to be Teal Green, now time to know which red I am...

You Are Crimson Red

Down to earth and warm-hearted, you instantly make everyone feel at ease around you. And while you have an understated passion - you lack the uncontrolled passion of most other reds. You prefer to sit back and enjoy every situation life has to offer. You put an optimistic spin on everything. And even when things are going well, you don't get too amped up. You prefer to keep your emotions as steady as possible.

What Color Red Are You?

By Chance...

Yesterday on subway, I met my primary school friend by chance! She saw me and said Hi to me first as I was so sleepy and didn't really care other passengers.

The funny thing is the chance for us to meet up on subway is 0%, as my friend, Tik, doesn't use subway to go to work but it was holiday yesterday, she had to use subway because the car she usually was not in service. And for me, I normally go to office around 9.30 AM, but yesterday I had to go early (around 7.30 AM) due to urgent assignment.

Thinking of timing and other conditions, there is almost no chance for us to meet on subway, and the chance for us to get on the same train, same carriage...

I can only say "Wow"...this thing really happened!! Anything you called it...chance, destiny... it's just so cool!

Remember that I met my high school friend once on Sky train? Same condition!!! almost 0% chance! But it did happen...

It just assures me that nothing is impossible!!!

Where is it???

You'll Find Love Where You Least Expect It

You're the type most likely to find love... surprised? You shouldn't be! You're a fun, independent woman who is always out and about. And you're smart to sometimes leave your girlfriends behind and go it alone. Men love to approach you when you're out by yourself - including Mr. Perfect!

Where Will You Find Love?

Back at work!

Hello Folks...I'm back at work!!
After 5 days...been so lazy... now I'm back! (but still lazy)

One thing... I would like to remind you...that next week, on Tuesday 25th, is my birthday!!! Anyone wants to greet, send me present... Thank you very much. ;-)

Ok..... time to get back to work!!!
I missed you all!

Love or Beloved?

Which one is better? I'm not talking about right or wrong... but which way will make me really happy??

To choose between someone you love and someone who loves you....which one?

Someone I love doesn't love me...

While someone I don't love, loves me so much...

Anyone has the correct answer? I'm sure not...

Or is it all about sex? No love at all...

That'd be easier though...if it's only about lust...

But at the point of making decision, would you choose to love or to be loved?
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A dream...

I had a dream last night. I was doing an exam..in my dream...it's writing answer. I knew all the answers..
In my dream, I was very exciting...and I did answer carefully.. I still remember some of the answers..then the time's up.
I handed over my quiz paper...and I realised I didn't answer one question!!!!!!!! I was so pissed!
It's very easy one!!
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Do you think what is bothering my mind?? what did I haven't finished??? That made me having a dream like that...

On Holidays (again)

Officially annouced!!!
From 13-17 April 2006...Jane will be on holidays...as everyone in Fuji TV office (Bangkok only)!!!
Hooray!!! *I wish I was slimmer, so I could jump up and spin round and round, screaming yippie at the same time*
Oh...it's Songkran day aka Thai new year...the day people splash water to each other!

*Splash splash..to you all!!!* (I prefer using water gun..muahahahaha)

Dead fish...

...I'm dead...

...Can't think...

...Can't move...

...Damn hot outside...

...I'm smelly...

...Help ME...

...I'm dead already...

Thanks Jo...

Oh, I get by with a little help from my friend(s)....
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friend(s)
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friend(s)
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From Jo's phone camera, we got a little idea how great and nice Koh Kood was when we're there...
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Even I've got such a good friend like Jo...I still want to have my own camera!!! ;-) and my birthday is coming...people!

View from our balcony...

When the tide was at lowest...

That was ME!!!

On the way to a waterfall...

Our Beach...

Shockingly beautiful!!!

Jane...waiting for the dinner to come... I think I was so scary in this pic... and funny too!!! hahaha..I like it!!!

The water at the pier was great!!! Just wanted to show you that the colour of the sea was so beautiful!!!

Present for my 28th Birthday!!

Dear friends, visitors, whoever...

My birthday is coming...soon on 25th April... and... as I've been a good girl, I deserve one good present for my birthday right???

I just lost my digital camera... I know you enjoy seeing my photos from my trips, but from now you will not have the chance to see new photos... how sad?

You can help!!! Any one who feels like I deserve a good present for my birthday... Please send me Canon IXY 800IS camera... You will be able to see some nice photos on my blog again... and you will feel good for making a good girl very happy on her birthday too!!

Isn't that great???
Canon IXY 800 IS.... :-) I didn't get anything from Santa last X'mas, I think it's time for me to get something for my birthday... I've been a good girl for 27 years...

Please...
-Jane (a good girl)

P.S. If you're a millionaire, you can give me more, I don't mind getting a 2 GB memory card with the camera! (as I lost 512 MB with my camera this time)

I'm back..no photo

Hello People..
I'm back...safe and sound
Th eisland was great..awesome...the beach..the sea...the weather...it's just great.
But I'm so sorry..I don't have any pictures to show you...to prove that it's really good.. because my camera was stolen... all the pictures I've taken...all gone...

I really had good time on that island... I did...
I hope I can show some pictures form Jo's phone-camera...

Sudoku

I've heard of it and have tried it before on newspaper and also on internet but hardly played it or been addicted to it.

Today I just feel like playing it...and yes solved 4 games from easy, medium, hard and tough. I think I like it! I will play it everyday from now on... to prevent myself from having Alzeimer!

I know it becomes big hit around the world today and I don't like doing whatever most people do... but for this one, I am just happy and really enjoy doing!

I have to confess that I'm addicted to Sudoku!!!

Are you Aquarius?

If YES! Please contact me... ;-)

Your True Love Is an Aquarius

Why you'll love an Aquarius: Independent yet devoted, you'll appreciate the unique approach to love Aquarius takes. You both see love as a bit of a game, and Aquarius will challenge you until you're completely hooked. Why an Aquarius will love you: You're secure enough to give Aquarius tons of space - even if it means separate interests and friends. You have the brains to keep Aquarius engaged and curious. And the passion to change the world together!

What Sign Is Your True Love?

I am NOT...

I thought I will get different result, like...You're NOT a seducer!!!

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

And I can't be US citizen

You Failed the US Citizenship Test

Oops, you only got 5 out of 10 right!

Could You Pass the US Citizenship Test?

But I'm Austin!!

You Are Austin

A little bit country, a little bit rock and roll. You're totally weird and very proud of it. Artistic and freaky, you still seem to fit in... in your own strange way. Famous Austin residents: Lance Armstrong, Sandra Bullock, Andy Roddick

What American City Are You?

I was not Koala but Panda!!!

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Deer Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker. While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.

The Animal Personality Test

Ayutthaya by bike

First thing I saw there...cutie tuk tuk, Ayutthaya style. It's different from Bangkok tuk tuk..more classic here!

This old capital city and its temples, palaces were burnt by Burmese... long time ago...but I think the buddha statues were destroyed by Thai, cut the head and stole them and sold to museums...or antique shops/collectors. Sad huh?

Buddha...

Another view...I always looked for shade.

Ruined temple...

A room with a view (through bars)

Sleeping Buddha..our last stop..

Elephant and mahout...more for the show... this elephant is a kid...still small... and cute!

She was selling those handmade grasshoppers made by coconut leaf.

Jane...Look at my face!! So RED!!! I wasn't drunk... but the heat did something to me!

Ying and I....Actually we were tired....so tired..but the smile never been away from our faces.

Biking in Ayutthaya

On Sunday...Ying and her friend, Christian and I went to Ayutthaya for city tour. And now I'm going to tell you about our trip.

From Bangkok, take a minibus from Victory Monument (60 baht each) for about 1.5 hours. When you arrive, don't listen to any guy who approach to you and offer you any service, walk down the road and you will see many bicycles parked there. Rent one of them (30 baht for Thai, 50 baht for foreigner) with a map, then you can start exploring this old capital city on your own.

First stop, What Maha that opposite is Wat Ratchaburana...you can go inside the ruined temples (normally Thai pay 10 baht and 30 baht for Foreigner, but yestesday was special, we didn't have to pay. It's all free), I took so many pictures from the first temple, them we we moved to another ruined temples, I got bored...

Well....The reason is it was really really hot yesterday and it's dehydrating... The scene and temples are very nice, and knowing a little about Thai history makes it more interesting. But the climate was bad... too hot.

We decided to go to Elephant camp and locked ourselves in A/C giftshop for awhile(and bought nothing) before Christian jumped on the elephant and walked away. Ying and I had around 30 minutes to rest under the shade and relaxed.

30 minutes was very short, we had to get on our bike and went to pick Christian from elephant. Then we moved to another temple...the big sleeping buddha statue. Then I decided that we should go back to Bangkok.

Get on the minibus back to Bangkok (another 60 baht each), I fell asleep before the wheel turning. We arrived Bangkok around 7.30 PM. I was exhausted..but I still had to watch TV, following the result of Thailand general election.

I went to bed around 1.30 AM...
I was woken up by sms, news service, at 3.42 AM....and couldn't get back to sleep but tried to.
At 5.30 AM, my boss texted me telling me to go to office at 7 AM. I woke up, took a shower, got dressed and jumped on motorbike...

I'm dying... sleepy...
I will post pictures tonight after listening to Simple American's voice post. Now... I'll go to my dreamland...(with my aching butt)

Spain is the last answer??

This test I found at PY really helped me. I was considering between Spain and Italy or Greece for 10 days this summer...and now I got the answer!!!

You Belong in Barcelona

When it comes to Europe, you don't want to decide between culture and fun. You want art by day and a big party by night. Barcelona is ideal for you. You can check out some Picasso, eat some tapas, take a siesta, and then dance all night!

What European City Do You Belong In?