Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Last day on vacation...

It’s the last day of the longest vacation I ever had. I have stayed almost 6 months on the island of El Hierro. At first, I had no idea why I chose this island for my holiday destination. Sure it is far from home, and it’s not a popular spot. But I’m not the only tourist here. Since my arrival I have collected plenty of reasons to remain on this magic island.

What can I do to keep from awakening from my wonderful dream? I don’t want to wake. I don’t want to leave…

I’m packing now, Look! I had to buy three more bags! I never considered myself a shopper but I cannot deny I shopped with the evidence in front of me. I love packing most times, it gets me ready to travel. But I don’t feel like packing today. I don’t want to return now even though I love packing.

Is it possible for me stay? I know the answer. No. I have to go back to the real world. I can no longer run away. Am I ready to go back? No, not really.

Is it the island that makes me hold my heart here? Or is it the peace of being away from reality that keeps me here? I think it is the latter.

I must leave anyway. Reality can’t be that bad, everyone lives with it. I can exist in it too but when I can’t stand it any longer, I will run away… again and again.

And again…
------------------------------

Thanks so much to Simple American who helped me edit my first short story!!!

This is a part of self-therapy I'm having, same as the dream interpretation and the letter to myself. Let's get to know better about this creature called Jane!

14 comments:

mistipurple said...

don't be afraid. bloggerland seems to have alot of supportive people. perhaps we are all the same, as we write to keep sane in this insane world. you're not alone. and we will help each other stay afloat. hugs.

Kunstemaecker said...

Well congrats on your first story!

simple american said...

Where have I seen this. ;)


Hugs for you.

carakoala said...

Hey my koala!! CONGRATS!!! and thanks for sharing with us that story.....i will try and do some therapy too, sometimes i get a bit too sad when i come home (friggin' work) .
LOVE u!! AND HOPE THIS REALLY IS helpfull babe! muackssssssss

JY said...

Hi Jane.

Pleased to meet you and get to know you better. Make sure you've resumed being the Jane who loves herself to bits. =P

Jane said...

@misti: I'm glad I have you and others here for me... Thank you! Hugs...

@Kracker: Thanks :-) and I will try to write some more..

@SA: looks familiar to you??? ;-) I'm so sorry for bothering you though..

@carakoala: you're welcome...sharing my happiness to you all also makes me happy!

@JY: Nice to meet you too!!! And I'm improving... :-)

neko said...

you can go back to the world, but don't stop dreaming :)
* hugs *

L B said...

Waaa ~ wanna dream on with you, but seriously.. I don't really like packing, because it usually means I have to leave!!! Or go away.. And even when I am packing to go somewhere for a vacation, I fret all the time wondering if I have packed everything!!.. :-)

Jane said...

Someone said this vacation is like the relationship... and my vacation was over...same as my relationship. Sure I hate when it ends...both vacation and relationship but I have to admit it and yes I'm not afraid to take another vacation....or a new relationship also!!!

may said...

there's always that nice "hideaway" for a quiet moment or two. different islands for different occasions, for sure. hope you find another fantasy island soon, one that you'd never have to leave! :)

simple american said...

You're not bothering me sweetie. Dun think that. OK? A thousand thousand hugs.

J said...

congrats on your maiden attempt!! keep em coming!! *hugz*

slurp! said...

hahaha ... you almost had me thinking you were really at El Hierro ;)
Escape is temporary, you still have to face reality in the end.
if i would have to go for that long holidays, i wouldn't bother about packing.
Just leave everything behind & go. :)

Jane said...

@may: I wish I could have endless holiday..yeah!!

@SA: I will ask for your help again then!!! hehehehe.... millions of hugs back to you!

@J: Yup Yup.... trying to get back on track of happy Jane!

@slurp!: First thank you so much for visiting, your blog is cool too!! And....well I wish I was in El Hierro in real too!!! For packing...I went there with one small backpack and came back with 3 more bags.. means... I've got so many good memories that I wanted to bring all of them back with me... and to keep them with me. ;-)